Two months later and too many things to write about.
After graduation, I was told by multiple people that life now becomes boring. Okay, maybe they didn’t exactly say it like that, but that was the main theme of the conversation. The fact that the “fun” days of college were over and I now had to enter 8-5, Monday-Friday world, was going to be a huge challenge, especially when having to find relevancy and excitement in my life.
Well, sorry to disappoint, but life after college and in the 8-5, Monday-Friday has been pretty amazing and challenging all at the same time. Yes, I go to the same job five days a week and I (now) drive to work when it’s dark in the morning and drive home when it’s dark at night. Yes, I work with the same people on a daily basis. No, I don’t take exciting business trips all over the world or get to meet amazing famous people on a daily basis. None of this matters, because I find joy in what I’m doing and the life that I’m living.
Cheesy enough for you? Good. But for real. No two days are the same at my job. I’m challenged on a regular basis to not just do my job, but to innovate my job. I’m challenged to tap into the inner-creative and strategic parts of my brain to both benefit my clients and my company. Have I mastered this art? Absolutely not. Am I continuing to try and get better? On a daily basis. I’m challenged to stay relevant, to speak out, to stay focused, to be efficient, to ask for help, to remember what I’ve been taught, and to get better day after day. This is no boring task. This is hard work. This keeps life interesting. It also helps that my co-workers and company have my back and are supportive of one another and our efforts. This truly is a team that I am blessed to work for.
Learning the balancing act of life also keeps it interesting. While trying to learn and excel in the workplace, I’m also figuring out the balancing act of having multiple friendships with people located across the country and family members also located across the country. I’m just glad I don’t also have a husband and children to try and throw in that mix right now! Some would say, I’m trying to figure it all out.
That’s kind of been the theme of these past two months.
“I’m figuring it all out.”
I don’t think this statement will ever go away. I will never get it all figured out. But, that’s the beauty of this life. No one has it all figured out, even if they think they do.
I’m going to make mistakes. I’m going to experience heartaches and breaks. I’m going to mess up. I’m going to feel guilt and shame. I’m going to get hurt, and I may unintentionally hurt others. I’m also going to find love and joy. I’m going to experience emotional highs and lows and everything in between. I will feel peace and internal conflict (even have to work through external conflict). I will make decisions that I’m not sure will be right for me, and I will make decisions that every bone in my body and spirit in my soul will solidify is the best path forward. I’m going to grow closer to Jesus, yet still feel distant at times. I’m going to just strive to be real. It’s the human thing to do.
The Lord works on his own time (which is always perfect) and in his own way (which boggles my mind when I see it unfold), but he’s also working for my good. No matter what challenges or joys come next, I’ve been blessed with a group of diverse friends, loving family and an all-loving God at my side. Do I feel stuck and trapped in my new 8-5, Monday-Friday life? Not at all. I feel more free, liberated, and hopeful than I’ve ever felt before in my life. I plan on working to keep my perspective this way, and keep living this way.
Well, there’s your update. If you made it this far, I applaud you. If you made it this far in this post, tell me and I’ll make you brownies.
Until I find the time and inspiration to write again …
All my best,